What a beautiful day!

Today started mighty early for me. I'd only gotten to bed by around 4 am or so and something made me get up at 930am or so. Not sure why my mind wouldnt let me sleep because my body was definitely saying it was still exhausted and my mind wasnt in full gear either but neither would let me sleep a minute past 930am no matter HOW deep I buried myself in the blankets. *sigh* Oh well. Of course hubby'd been up since 6am Im sure and was already raring to go for the day. Man I wish he'd keep to the same sleep schedule on off days as he has on work days!! The smell of fresh biscuits was wafting from the kitchen right down into the bedroom so my nose decided to let my belly and tastebuds in on this fact and of course the rest of me had to follow its happy ass out of bed (it's a conspiracy Im tellin ya).

I got myself up and going (sort of)..man I wanted a cuppa tea but I didnt have any ready and didnt feel like waiting for the pot to get ready either. After a plate of breakfast (courtesy of my DH) and a few minutes to wake up, my hubby asked for like the 3rd time when I wanted to go get groceries. *sigh* Ok ok, I'm getting ready.... Then he decides that we're not going anywhere until after the mail shows up *grumble* ok..fine. Im mighty thankful we waited though because my new motherboard arrived today as well as another surprise for me. Ok, so it wasnt much of a surprise really but it was something I'd been looking for for the last 4 years and I was so happy to get my hands on it today. You see, when I ran from Pennsylvania in 2003...I'd left a couple of my most prized porcelain dolls with a friend to send to me when I got settled and the one I treasured above all managed to get broken beyond repair while in her possession. It was a Geppeddo brand doll....a company that has been out of business for several years now. Needless to say, there wasnt any calling the company for spare parts or anything to fix it. The doll in question Im guessing is fairly rare as I couldnt find a listing for it anywhere to save my life. All other Geppeddo dolls I could find on EBay, just not this particular one. Why is it so special? Because a friend of mine thought to buy it for me one Christmas when she was buying for the rest of her girls (one daughter, two in laws and one "adopted"). This doll wasnt exactly the prettiest on the kiosk but I kept getting drawn to her..mostly because she had a really reasonable price (most of the dolls on the kiosk were running close to $100 and this one was only $35) but also because she was a gypsy doll. I was heartbroken when I found out the foot was shattered beyond repair....it's not as though I could take a shoe and glue to the her leg and hide the damage as she was meant to be barefoot so shoes would look very out of place on her. I searched for 4 years now on EBay to find this same doll to replace the broken one and wouldnt you know this year 2 went up for auction within 3 days of each other. Hubby knew how important this doll was to me so he kept close eye on the auction and made sure to win it. She showed up today...the postman wasnt even off my porch before I was getting into that shipment for sure ;).

My new motherboard also showed up today. Hubby, the darling he is, got it installed into my computer....fired up the computer and.......................&%&(%^$&^!!!!! It still wouldnt work. He then says that maybe it was the power source and that he has a spare in the garage. I, for the life of me, still dont understand HOW the fan and monitor and such would work without a powersource but some how it does. So he went out to the garage, got the spare powersource and everything fired up fine. Ugh...been on the laptop 3 weeks and if we'd even thought of that I coulda had it fixed the night it broke down and saved us some money too. The only thing that DIDNT work was the sound....speakers were plugged in, on and didnt have the headphones plugged in....everything that should have been clicked in the volume control was. So what does he end up doing? Ripping out the new motherboard and putting the old one back in...voila...it works. *insert eyeroll here*. I aint gonna argue of fuss though because he has had alot on his mind lately. Im just glad he got it fixed before next week....my back is killing me.

Oh and the company called again today and then emailled to firm up plans for next week. He flies out on Weds at 1030am...lays over in Georgia and then arrives in D.C. that afternoon. His interview is 930am on Thurday so I may know if he has the job or if we gotta wait by that evening. Im not going to promise any news by then because he's going to take a few notes out with him with directions to a couple apartment complexes so he can look for some new digs. There have been a couple we've seen on line that are rather reasonable in cost considering the area and look nice too but I'd like him to at least eyeball them and talk to the leasing offices. Friday he flies out in the morning and I should get to see him by that night. I'd really like to see one of the two in NC come through this week as the rentals in that state are soooo much cheaper but we'll need to take what we can at this point. I've been checking out the weather there and they're running 13-15 degrees cooler than us. Im beginning to wish I asked Santa for a new winter coat for hubby as I believe he's gonna need it in short order.

So hot!!!

So damn hot that I havent even had time to go to my email yet or grab breakfast or nothing. Shortly after I got up (I went straight to the kitchen to cut apart those pieces I finished last night), I'd say maybe 20 minutes later....hubby got up to let the dog out and asked if I'd been to the computer. No I hadnt, why? He says that the tentative plan is for him to be gone from here December 5-7th to Virginia. No, the gal hasnt gotten all the plans and stuff itinerized BUT he's on the schedule for a meeting. I dont remember hearing the phone ringing this morning (we have a handset in the bedroom as well as the kitchen and the home office) and hubby said that he called the company this morning before he came to bed. They'll be emailling him the final details later. I may be editting this later if that email comes in today.

Tuesday:completed projects and a phone call

Well today I finally finished up all those little projects that I've been hoping to get completed before week's end. They are all painted, varnished and glued to the scrap green felt. All I'll need to do is separate the pieces and trim down the excess. Once that's done I can pack everything up. With any luck, I'll have it ready for shipment Friday.

After some consideration and a couple conversations with family, I decided to have hubby go ahead and call that company when he woke up for the day. The reason being is that the company's going to need time to book his flight and schedule his face to face interview. We only have 3 weeks left and then there is no job. It would be awesome if we could have another job lined up by then. Like everyone whom I've talked to has said, this company has now made 3 calls to talk to him and evidentally has a very strong interest in having him join their company. If they weren't, they wouldnt be paying his flight, car, hotel and food for 3 days just to meet with him for an hour or so. Hubby placed the call around 330pm yesterday and no one was available so he left a message. With any luck, we'll get a call from them later this morning. I'll keep everyone updated on our progress in this.

Holy Frijoles!!!

Talk about a fast response! We got a call from that company in Manassas at 945am today. Hubby was talking to someone he addressed as Samantha who was asking him how the interview went. She must have known the answer to that because she was calling to see about setting a face 2 face interview...on their tab. Hotel, flight, car, food...all paid by them. He gave them the "let me talk to my wife" delay to buy himself a day to think on it. Mostly it's because he doesnt want them to spend money if it's not going to be a good fit but Im thinking he's wanting to give one of the local companies a chance to call back. I told him he'd be foolish to not take the opportunity. Even if it doesnt result in an offer it's good practice getting infront of a prospective employer and it's on someone else's dime. Besides the local company has had just as long to get back to him as this company has. You snooze you loose you know!

Con: There would be a HUGE move right around the holidays.
Pro: They pay costs...30 days temp housing , 30 days temp storage and something else I cant remember. Also sounds like they're willing to wait until after he gets his severance package which is a HUGE plus. Only 3 more weeks to go and we have a house to prepare to sell!!

Con: Overtime is not on a daily basis like we're used to...it's after 40 hours.
Pro: The base pay is going to go up. Where he's at now, he's paid X amount an hour and Z amount after the 8th hour on a day...averaging Y on an hourly basis. The amount on the table is about $1/hr more than what he's making per hour now (the Y figure) which is a good thing. Gotta make it worth the move.

Con: It's a rotating shift... 4 months days then 4 months nights and back again. 12 hr shifts(?)
Pro: We're already used to this. So there wont be too much change to get used to. Besides once he gets in a place, he may find someone like his buddy here that prefers a certain shift and he wont have to change. That'd be cool.

Anyhow, this is where we stand at this point. Will let everyone know when the face 2 face is set for as soon as I know.

Change of decor and a phone call

Ok, so sue me....I wasnt completely happy with the last batch of decorating I did on this page so I redid it. Normally Im not much into green (you wouldnt know it with this layout and the one on the Home Page) but these two layouts turned out so damn nice!!

Hubby got that call we were expecting promptly at 330pm today. He talked with whoever was on the other end for about 20 minutes or so. After he got off I asked him how he thought it went and he said he felt much better about this call than the last two. He down graded the other two calls to 3 or 4 out of 10 and this one was rated a 7-8 out of 10. He sounded so much more relaxed on the phone this time too. I am grateful for this. My biggest worry was that he'd sound as nervous or worse.

Gonna make this a short entry tonight as Im really not feeling 100% today. Let's just say I am actually snuggled in my robe yet it's warm enough in the house for me to be running in shorts easily. I think he brought something home from work again. It's either that or the fact the weather's been playing yo-yo lately. We're up to the 50s and it's supposed to be close to 70 in a day or so. Im hoping if I catch it early and does myself with some cold medicine it'll go away in a day or so.

job updates and other stuff

I was telling you that last week hubby got a call from a company in Virginia. After several days of not hearing anything last week, I commensed to job hunt once again. I filled out 3 more apps Wednesday this week. Two were for stores I had already applied to and one was for Home Depot. I figure the two I reapplied to had new positions available (one business had several I was qualified to do) and that this would serve as a reminder I was still job hunting and that my availability had changed somewhat. Im really kind of hoping for the one company as it had at least 2 positions in the stock area and one is overnights.

Yesterday we got another call from that company in Virginia. Go figure I'd given up and applied to those other places.. Anyhow, the etch leader had decided against him but the company itself is still interested so another boss there is going to be calling at 330pm on Monday. Hubby told me this happened when he first applied to Texas Instruments so Im guessing this is a good thing. Personally a good thing would be an answer so I can just come out of Limboland. Now just watch....something will come through at the same time for both of us and we'll need to make a decision. *shakes head*

In other head shaking news, I was in chat last night talking with some friends when my MSN chirped at me....with a message containing a crack that listening's better than streaming right? Yes indeed. No it wasnt him, but it was his woman. We talked for a while and the excuse I was given for the no contact? Oh he "didnt receive" the email I'd sent and that he always removes people that arent going to be there for a while. Yeah right...there have been others that were no shows and no contact that stayed on the schedule a helluva lot longer... where I at least was making it every other week AND had at least forewarned him. The offer was made for her to send what all he got I was pretty much able to tell her what had been sent and then I turned around and forwarded the email I'd sent to him. It's about 24 hours later and I've yet to get a response. Maybe because I was pretty pissy in the MSN communication. At this point I still havent been added back on the schedule. Do I care if Im put back? Not really. I am still a tad miffed about the whole thing though. Im giving it another week and then just going to block and drop.

Last couple days I've taken and redecorated my web pages. My myspace page has the same pattern as last year because I simply couldnt find anything I really liked for that page. Two of my blogger pages and my other myspace are all decked out for the holidays. I even got decor up for a friend's myspace. That's pretty much all Im going to do in the line of decorations though...other than that Im being humbuggy about the whole season. No sense digging everything out and putting it up if there's a chance I may be packing things up around the holidays. Of course my luck is that if I dont we'll end up here still. *shrugs*

I guess I better close this out. I really need to finish painting those pieces so I can get it all shipped this coming Friday. Not sure if I really feel up to working on them tonight....actually more enclined to grab a mug of hot chocolate, a heating pad and curl up in bed with a book (Im into book 3 of that series now).

Catchin ya'll up

Just doing some catch-up here. As most of you know my main computer went *poofs* on me over a week ago. My hubby thinks it's the motherboard and has managed to win one on EBay that he thinks may fix my problem. Right now we're just waiting on delivery so he can get it installed. With any luck this will completely correct things for me. I know the *poof* wasnt my harddrives as he bought a shell to make my C and D drives externals so I can access the information on it. Unfortunately, all the programs I had in there will need reinstalling Im sure. Oh well, there isnt anything of major importance in there anymore since Im no longer streaming. Anyhow, I havent been writing much because of how I have things set up. Im still on the laptop in the livingroom. Ive got this baby set up on a tv tray on top of the coffee table. It pretty much brings it up to a good level for me but I also end up having to sit on the edge of the sofa to reach it. Needless to say the lean Im at pretty much aggravates my lower back and the edge of the sofa itself presses on the nerves behind my legs which means they go to sleep every now and then while Im at the keyboard. Hence the reason why Im not in as often as I used to be. Oh of course I could always clear off my kitchen table and set up out there but #1 the chairs out there beg for mercy everytime I sit on them (actually they scream in agony but does that really matter), and #2 if this is an easy fix, there's no real sense in setting up for just a week or so in the kitchen. If it's going to take longer, I'll just have the CPU from the bedroom brought into the office for my use. In any case, Im making use of this time away from the computer.

During the last week and a half or so, I've been spending more time painting. In this time, Ive managed to complete 18 small pieces and get 8 more started. Twelve of the 18 are pieces to a couple Christmas gifts for a couple friends. All I'll need to do is buy some gift certificates for the others on my list and my shopping's done for the year. I wont be posting the pictures of any of the crafts I did as gifts this year until after the holidays because the people who are getting hand crafted items all have access to this blog (they just dont necessarily leave comments). I have 8 more started, a small one for myself and at least 1 of the others is for my folks....something they can have that I made that can be left up all year around (I painted them ornaments a few years back).

When Im not painting, Im catching whatever movies are being aired on tv. I usually catch approximately 2 movies a night. May as well, nothing much else to do around here with hubby away all night. The last couple nights I've been doing some reading too. I actually broke down and started the Harry Potter series. Oh, I know I had said that I wanted to wait until the movies were all out but that would be another 2-3 years. What Im doing is watching the movie first then reading the corresponding book. Depending on how this goes will determine if I read past the 4th book. If it goes anything like the first book did, I probably will end up stopping after the 4th book. Needless to say, I was awfully glad I watched the movie first because if I'd done it the other way around I would have been sorely dissappointed....just like any other time. My only guess is that they didnt do their research properly and not realizing exactly what kind of a phenomenon this was going to be, simply just "whipped something together". There were definitely a few lines in the first book that were LOL funny and would have worked well in the movie. I got through the first book in less than a day's time and watched the second movie this evening. I'll be starting reading the book later tonight.

For the benefit of those I havent had a chance to talk to (my NYBro for one) and for those who have reading programs and cannot access my "Home Page", hubby got a call last Thursday around 10 am from a company in Virginia that expressed some interest in his application. He got to talk to the HR (human resources) Director for a little bit and was told that the lead in the etch section would call him back around 2pm the same day. The leader called and talked with hubby for a good long time. It sounded like he was testing hubby's knowledge with systems and stuff. It also sounded like alot of what was asked was stuff hubby learned in school 11 years ago and hasnt had to put into use since. Hubby gave the call a 50/50 shot at the time. We were kind of hoping they'd call back again but we havent heard word one since. My only hope right now is that they had a few more applications to call first before they decide and that they'll call after Thanksgiving. It's getting awfully close for my liking to be honest.

As for myself, I havent had one bite since Target called. Like I was telling a friend the other night, most companies will have their seasonal staff in place at this point and mostly trained because "Black Friday" is this week. Only hope for me at this point is that a company decides they need someone permanent and calls this next week. Im beginning to think that I may have to go to that temp agency down the road and see what they have. You all do know that if I had gotten a job, then the call from Virginia would have come through....that's just how my luck runs.

Saturday

Saturday was pretty good considering all things. I painted some (should *FINALLY* have those pieces done this week) and baked some brownies. My bro from NY called and we talked for a while. A package showed up from my SCSis....a 10 disc set of Led Zepp *whoot*. Kinda sad about it because it was sent for me to use in my streams....*shakes head*. I finished putting my contacts into my new phone...we got it at Wally World for $20....my other cell was needing replacing as it was 4 yrs old and things were wearing out on it. Took my banners off my MySpace and Blogger accounts. Maybe someday in the near future new ones will go up, maybe not. I gotta decide if I enjoy my freedom. Really would hate to waste all that great music I have though.

I spent part of the night in chat with some friends. Thanks for the warm welcome there. So sorry it got busy over here and I couldnt chat so much. Im getting the feeling the one chatter has no clue who I am in chat yet. Maybe that's best for now. I had trouble getting the stream to turn on over here though as hubby has some other music program as the default over here. thank you Chicago for sending the link. Unfortunately, before I could get it emailed to myself again the damn puter decided to reboot itself immediately so yet again I lost it. Not sure what hubby did when he installed WinAmp over on the laptop but it looks funky and Im not likin it any...and real player...well didnt want to open the link when I grabbed it in the room either. Ah well. I managed to hear most of the stream anyhow between tech problems. God how I want MY puter back!!!

Well it's nearly 430am...guess I'd better mosey into bed....

Oh how wonderful part deux

Ya ever have one of those days when you cant even get vertical much less put your fuzzy bunny slippers on before the day starts to throw things at you? Well friday , as you could tell by the beautiful picture I posted then, was one of those days. Thursday hubby had had an ENT appointment at 10am so we'd gone to bed early Thursday night because we were tired. Friday, hubby got up around 9am to pollute his lungs and take out the outgoing mail (we never put it out the night before if there are checks or cards involved). What a beautiful surprise to wake up to your mailbox knocked over. Mind you, the bugger wasnt just the box and a post. Oh no, that baby was cemented down and a good 2-3' sunk into the ground. I wish I could post the picture of it but since Im reduced to my laptop and I dont have access to the necessary cords to get the picture off my camera at this point, it's simply not gonna get posted until Im back on a regular desktop computer. Anyhow...he comes in to get his sneakers on and lets me know what happened. *sigh* The post couldnt be salvaged so he ended up having to buy the whole kit...another $50 that really could have gone elsewhere besides where it was ending up going. This sucks. I got myself up and going while he was out and started the apps I needed to get done. I managed to do 7 or 8 that day. It took me all day because I was making damn certain the stores were within a certain distance from the house (dont wanna spend a whole lot on cab fare ya know).

He got home and got the new post and box up, then mowed the lawn. While he was out mowing the postman showed up with more bad news. One was a bill we were expecting (just not expecting the amount DAMN!) and another was from the city we live in. Damn code compliance. Seems they dont like the truck parked in the front lawn because it wasnt an "improved parking area" or some shit. Top things all off, since they snail mailed the letter we only had less than 24 hours to get the truck moved. Yeah great. Damn thing's too heavy to push so there's no getting it into the driveway without it being towed...it had been placed there so hubby could get in and out of the garage with that big honkin Torino. Did I mention the truck wont fit through the doors of our garage? Hubby ended up having to call the repair shop we utilize and have them remove it. He told them since it needed to be fixed anyhow to just keep it at the shop and take their time fixing it because it'd be 2 months before we can pay for it anyhow, just tack on a storage fee. Thankfully,since we are such good customers (read we have alotta repairs because of such old vehicles), they didnt charge us for the towing. I wish we'd thought to just send the POS over that way in the first place.

While he was messing with that I was attempting to get those apps done. A couple of them had PDF files so you could snail mail the app in. This is about the time the printer decided it didnt have enough ink. Got the ink changed out and then it decided that it was out of alignment and had to be corrected. Of course, if it's not something I have to do daily I cant remember how the hell to fix it. By the time hubby came in, I was near tears and ready to hit the sangria in the frige (it wasnt even 1pm either...). Hubby got it fixed for me and showed me yet again how to do it (yeah like I'll remember in 6 months or so when it needs doing again!). After I was pretty much done, I turned the puter off and went to watch tv. Later, I went to turn on the puter and it gave me fits (see previous entry) so I left the office and let hubby deal with it.

While he was trying to trouble shoot the problem, I figured I'd drop the chatsite owner a note and let him know I definitely would NOT be able to come in to stream (all my stream stuff is on that puter) on Saturday. The arrangement I had with him was that I'd come in ~when~ I was available on Saturdays and stream. Since my resume is heavy in retail, it stands to chance I will have to work Saturday nights. I missed one stream due to a meeting and one because I was so ill that I slept through my streamspot. Otherwise, I've been there every Saturday regular as clockwork....even after every one of my friends left the site. Why'd I stay? Because although I knew much of what went on I "didnt know" if you know what I mean. To be honest when TxSis left I shoulda taken my happy ass right out of there. Well, before dropping him a note (gotta be polite and do the right thing) I checked the schedule on site. I dont know why I did, I just had the feeling I should. Surprise....I wasnt on the schedule at all. Now according to our arrangement, I should have had at BEST ** next to my nick but ohh no. I was completely removed. Lord knows how long I've been off...I know I was still on last week when I sat in that room for 3 damn hours streaming to a nearly empty room....AGAIN. Needless to say, I wrote him a note and let him know I had trouble with my computer (mind you he KNOWS I have a laptop and that I never set it up for streaming) and that I'd noticed that I was no longer on the schedule...I guess I'm fired? Well as of 354am SUNDAY morning, I've yet to hear from him. No acknowledgement yes or no. My best guess at this point is that I've been fired since he doesnt deem it necessary to communicate with me. As such, you'll notice all banners I had up advertising that chat site have been taken down. I refuse to waste space on my sites giving free advertising for someone who needs to get the damn burrs out of his ass. I havent decided what Im going to do yet...I've always said if anything happened at this site my headphones were getting hung up and permanently. Maybe that's just best. I have seen a couple other programs out there, though, that will allow me to do my own show...maybe I'll look into them. Tired of chat sites that pull shit like this. Last note to the site manager in case he decides to actually read this (yeah right...he's got access to here but never reads it anyhow...) I know what you said to whom about me and the only damn reason I DIDNT leave when I found out is because I "didnt know" what was said....capice?

Oh how wonderful!!!

For those that know me well, know that the title is just dripping with sarcasm. Yeah friday night my computer, the one thing that keeps me occupied during the course of these long lonely days, the recepticle of all things musical and artistic for me decided to go *poof*. I cant tell you how aggravated this makes me. It started nearly a week ago when some strange things started happening with it. It started so innocently. I had been working most the day on projects and decided to play one of my games. It had been one of those days and I needed to blow off some steam. I like to play games that let me shoot or blow up things when I get this way. I figure at least this way Im blowing off steam and nothing and no one's getting hurt. I wanted just a quick game so I had chosen to play a hunting game. I was rather surprised when it told me that the game wouldnt start. Why surprised? Well because I had played it earlier in the day with no problems. I tried rebooting, checking the connections...everything. I even ran my virus protection programs...yeah I said programs. Sometimes just having one wont catch everything. So anyhow, I run the programs and find nothing. It got late so I gave up and went to bed thinking that I'd just rip the program out the next day and re-install it when I got up.

The next day I woke up and went to my computer. Turned it on and once everything was started up I turned on the game again. Wow...the game started up no problem at all. Hmmm. the rest of day went without event on the computer. Every program ran perfectly just like it should.

A day or so later, it went the next step onto the freaky scale. I had been on the puter all day again as usual. I turned it off for a couple hours so I could watch some tv programs. When I got back to it....it wouldnt turn on. The monitor fired up, the fan was working in the CPU but nothing else. I tried rebooting and checking the connections again. The next attempt to fire it up I got the normal start up screen, or so I thought...then it told me there was an error and gave me the black screen again. I tried another reboot...nothing. I decided to write hubby a note that my puter was fkd and please check it...while I was writing I turned it on one more time and voila...it worked perfectly. Hmmm.

The next day... it started up fine. The only problem it gave me was while I was reading an article. I had a grand total of 2 windows open (not the usual 5 or 6) and the damn Internet Explorer turned itself off. Usually I get a warning before IE does this but this time...nope. It just shut itself off. Hmmmm. The rest of the day it worked fine. In fact the next several days it was fine. I was able to do all the research I needed to do and no hassles. Then came Friday...

Friday was the day from hell. Pretty much started the minute we got up and lasted right up to bedtime (thats a story for another entry though). My computer fired right up nicely and didnt give me a lick of trouble all morning. I managed to get several applications filled out and was running it with several windows open at any given time (I was checking Mapquest to make sure the businesses were close enough). When 8pm showed up, I turned the computer off so I could watch one of my tv programs. I got up after my program and went to fire up the computer to finish up my work. Again I get the fan, monitor and nothing else. Thankfully, hubby was home this time. I told him this wasnt the first time this happened and detailled what happened during the week. He told me to shut down and turn it back on in a few minutes. While I did that he went out to pollute his lungs so he didnt get to hear the God-awful noise that came up with the next firing up. When I turned it on, it looked as if it was going to start up no problem but then the screen got stuck it all the stuff that normally comes up and then said that the floppy in my A drive was either corrupted or stuck or something. Thing you need to know here is that I DONT HAVE AN A DRIVE in my puter.... C,D,E and F...yes....A ...no. When that message came up it emmitted a beeping that I'd never hear come from my puter before. Needless to say, I shut it off again and let hubby know when he came in. We tried to fire it up one more time and got the black screen again. He's guessing the puter's motherboard is pretty much shot. I wonder why, it was installed when the puter was built...4 yrs ago....and Im on it continually. So now, Im basically stuck with using the laptop. It's not the least bit comfortable on my back to say the least. Hubby's' said he's bought a drive casing (?) for my 2 harddrives so I can move the information over to another computer. He says I wont be able to access the programs but I will have access to my artwork and music at least. With any luck (and assuming he aint tired when he gets home later this morning) he'll have that all ready to go. I think we decided to have it so it's accessible on the laptop....I forsee some more sore backs in the future. Maybe I should have him hook it up the the spare unit in the bedroom. I'd have to clean up some in there, but it beats having my legs go to sleep while Im sitting on the edge of the sofa trying to access my laptop which is presently sitting on a tv tray on top of the coffee table. On the other hand, if I use the laptop, I will be able to watch tv in the livingroom (can you say big screen?) while I work on the computer.......

I cant believe it's been so long...

...since I wrote in here. There really isnt a whole lot going on right now (although I bet this entry will say otherwise by the time Im done) and I simply havent been able to bring myself to write. I just dont have the desire to to much of anything lately. I know what it is though as I've been through this before. The only difference between the last time and now is that Im married to an awesome man that doesnt verbally abuse me every chance he gets. However, the stuff going on pretty much triggers flashbacks and shit which brings up the same depression I had before. Thankfully I havent gotten to the point of wondering if anyone would miss me if I fell off a roof or anything, but the headaches have returned and the lack of desire for anything short of eating, wanting to cry and sleeping constantly. I know...I really should discuss this with the doctor...

It's been a week and a half since I wrote that "friend" and havent heard anything yet. I suspect I probably wont. I do know via a 3rd party that she at least got the message, now whether she actually READ it is another story. I do know that she asked said 3rd party what she should do about it and what she was advised to do. Ball's in her court at this point (damn this sounds familiar). If I hear back..great, if not...well it's her loss. I did, however, leave her some links to look into to help her with her problem. Wouldnt you know, while I was looking up stuff for her I found one or two that may help me. Maybe I should actually look into them today.

Havent done anything more in the line of applications yet. I do have a list of 7 or 8 stores in the mall around the corner that I may be applying to this week. My depressed state pretty much is holding me back here. Im going to have to do some thinking and see if I can figure out why filling these apps out is scaring me so much. I just feel so damn afraid. Is it the fear that our relationship will change? Or is it simply that Im afraid of getting settled in a place and have to leave it because of a position he ends up taking? Worse yet, if I go seasonal and get laid off in January....will he have a job by then? Should I be looking for something permanent instead just in case he has a hard time finding something? Just so many questions and no right answer for anything, but then again is there ever a right answer for anything? Maybe I should just bite the bullet and just go for it...all the places on this list are nationwide anyhow.

We've had temperatures jumping around the last week and a half. Not exactly conducive to feeling well for sure. Last week I ended up going into the dr's office to have my throat looked at. I had been taking all my meds as well as the Flonase so I was sure my problem wasnt allergies and hubby said many at work had been sick. I figured to be on the safe side I better go in because what I was looking at in my throat certainly APPEARED to be strep throat. Turns out my glands just went a little haywire and the dr I saw figures it was the change of weather. If it didnt get better in a week to come back. Thank goodness it wasnt strep. The other vitals were 98.7 (a bit high for me...I had the headache to back the fever up too), 272.5lbs (only a half pound up from last time...not losing but not really gaining either) and a 128/74 for a bp (not bad for an afternoon appointment and I'd been going all day). I didnt get to see my usual dr so I didnt bring up anything but my throat while I was there. My usual dr isnt available until the 12th of this month. IF Im feeling this way come the 12th, I may be making an appointment to see her. Im really kinda picky...if I have a cold or something really pressing I will see almost anyone they have on staff. However, for issues like this (among other things) I'd much rather be seeing just the one dr. I know that they have rather limited time for each appointment and rather than have to tell everything all over again and catch the next dr up to speed (every damn time Im there...it gets frustrating!!!)...it's just easier to see the primary dr (she remembers almost everything I tell her from one visit to the next no matter HOW long it's been). This may stem from the fact that I only saw the one dr while I was growing up and Im not used to seeing so many different people for my health.

Ive been placed under orders to not by the Eagles cd for myself. Seems my SCSis is buying it for me as part of my Christmas gift. Normally she wouldnt give me a heads up but she figured since I stream and I love music it would be in her best interests to make absolutely certain I did NOT have what she was planning on buying for me. Gotta love her. I fussed, of course, over the amount of money that I knew she was putting out but was told it was her money to do with as she saw fit. *sigh* ALl I can do now is accept it and say thanks. I did find something online that I think she'll like though so if we have a few dollars in the next two weeks I'll ask hubby to buy it so I can get it done in enough time. I still have those 2 horse plaques to finish yet and at least one more gift to paint before the end of the month. Maybe I'll start the gift as Im putting the finishing touches on the plaques. While Im waiting on parts of the plaques to dry I could be putting the white base coat on the next item. The base coat pretty much makes it easier to cover an "oops"...especially the darker colors that like to bleed (the bare plaster would soak the color right in and make it much harder to fix). Cant paint until hubby's awake though because I simply GOTTA have my music playing and I cant play music in the kitchen while he's sleeping. Even if I had a set of headphones with a cord long enough...I tend to sing so that option's pretty much out.

Slipped into a different nick and went to visit a couple friends during their streams this week. Normally I wont go where I dont stream but it was nice to see some familiar faces for a change. Really glad I did because for the one it was her last stream. Guarantee I wont be in that site anymore as I have no real reason to go in. The other...LOL....called me a bitch in MSN because I had snuck in. Hey at least I let you know in MSN that I had shown up. I coulda just messed around with you and not said anything...LOL (ooh...I think I got called a bitch again...LOL...thanks for noticing!!!)

Well I guess I gotta scoot. Time to cook something so hubby has lunch to bring tonight. I think I may get the pix off my camera too so maybe if I'm up to it I'll post a few later...or maybe tomorrow. *shrugz*